Reflections of a Young Manon The Choice of a ProfessionSource: MECW Volume 1Written: between August 10 and 16, 1835First published: in Archiv für die Geschichte des Sozialismus und der Arbeiterbewegung, 1925Translated from the Latin.Transcribed: by Sally Ryan.Nature herself has determined the sphere of activity in which the animal should move, and it peacefully moves withinthat sphere, without attempting to go beyond it, without even an inkling of any other. To man, too, the Deity gave ageneral aim, that of ennobling mankind and himself, but he left it to man to seek the means by which this aim can beachieved; he left it to him to choose the position in society most suited to him, from which he can best uplift himselfand society.This choice is a great privilege of man over the rest of creation, but at the same time it is an act which can destroy hiswhole life, frustrate all his plans, and make him unhappy. Serious consideration of this choice, therefore, is certainlythe first duty of a young man who is beginning his career and does not want to leave his most important affairs tochance.Everyone has an aim in view, which to him at least seems great, and actually is so if the deepest conviction, theinnermost voice of the heart declares it so, for the Deity never leaves mortal man wholly without a guide; he speakssoftly but with certainty.But this voice can easily be drowned, and what we took for inspiration can be the product of the moment, whichanother moment can perhaps also destroy. Our imagination, perhaps, is set on fire, our emotions excited, phantomsflit before our eyes, and we plunge headlong into what impetuous instinct suggests, which we imagine the Deityhimself has pointed out to us. But what we ardently embrace soon repels us and we see our whole existence in ruins.We must therefore seriously examine whether we have really been inspired in our choice of a profession, whether aninner voice approves it, or whether this inspiration is a delusion, and what we took to be a call from the Deity wasself-deception. But how can we recognise this except by tracing the source of the inspiration itself?What is great glitters, its glitter arouses ambition, and ambition can easily have produced the inspiration, or what wetook for inspiration; but reason can no longer restrain the man who is tempted by the demon of ambition, and heplunges headlong into what impetuous instinct suggests: he no longer chooses his position in life, instead it isdetermined by chance and illusion.Nor are we called upon to adopt the position which offers us the most brilliant opportunities; that is not the one which,in the long series of years in which we may perhaps hold it, will never tire us, never dampen our zeal, never let ourenthusiasm grow cold, but one in which we shall soon see our wishes unfulfilled, our ideas unsatisfied, and we shallinveigh against the Deity and curse mankind.But it is not only ambition which can arouse sudden enthusiasm for a particular profession; we may perhaps haveembellished it in our imagination, and embellished it so that it appears the highest that life can offer. We have notanalysed it, not considered the whole burden, the great responsibility it imposes on us; we have seen it only from adistance, and distance is deceptive.Our own reason cannot be counsellor here; for it is supported neither by experience nor by profound observation,being deceived by emotion and blinded by fantasy. To whom then should we turn our eyes? Who should support uswhere our reason forsakes us?Our parents, who have already travelled life's road and experienced the severity of fate - our heart tells us.And if then our enthusiasm still persists, if we still continue to love a profession and believe ourselves called to it afterwe have examined it in cold blood, after we have perceived its burdens and become acquainted with its difficulties,then we ought to adopt it, then neither does our enthusiasm deceive us nor does overhastiness carry us away.But we cannot always attain the position to which we believe we are called; our relations in society have to someextent already begun to be established before we are in a position to determine them.Our physical constitution itself is often a threatening obstacle, and let no one scoff at its rights.It is true that we can rise above it; but then our downfall is all the more rapid, for then we are venturing to build oncrumbling ruins, then our whole life is an unhappy struggle between the mental and the bodily principle. But he who isunable to reconcile the warring elements within himself, how can he resist life's tempestuous stress, how can he actcalmly? And it is from calm alone that great and fine deeds can arise; it is the only soil in which ripe fruits successfullydevelop.Although we cannot work for long and seldom happily with a physical constitution which is not suited to ourprofession, the thought nevertheless continually arises of sacrificing our well-being to duty, of acting vigorouslyalthough we are weak. But if we have chosen a profession for which we do not possess the talent, we can neverexercise it worthily, we shall soon realise with shame our own incapacity and tell ourselves that we are uselesscreated beings, members of society who are incapable of fulfilling their vocation. Then the most natural consequenceis self-contempt, and what feeling is more painful and less capable of being made up for by all that the outside worldhas to offer? Self-contempt is a serpent that ever gnaws at one's breast, sucking the life-blood from one's heart andmixing it with the poison of misanthropy and despair.An illusion about our talents for a profession which we have closely examined is a fault which takes its revenge on usourselves, and even if it does not meet with the censure of the outside world it gives rise to more terrible pain in ourhearts than such censure could inflict.If we have considered all this, and if the conditions of our life permit us to choose any profession we like, we mayadopt the one that assures us the greatest worth, one which is based on ideas of whose truth we are thoroughlyconvinced, which offers us the widest scope to work for mankind, and for ourselves to approach closer to the generalaim for which every profession is but a means - perfection.Worth is that which most of all uplifts a man, which imparts a higher nobility to his actions and all his endeavours,which makes him invulnerable, admired by the crowd and raised above it.But worth can be assured only by a profession in which we are not servile tools, but in which we act independently inour own sphere. It can be assured only by a profession that does not demand reprehensible acts, even ifreprehensible only in outward appearance, a profession which the best can follow with noble pride. A professionwhich assures this in the greatest degree is not always the highest, but is always the most to be preferred.But just as a profession which gives us no assurance of worth degrades us, we shall as surely succumb under theburdens of one which is based on ideas that we later recognise to be false.There we have no recourse but to self-deception, and what a desperate salvation is that which is obtained by selfbetrayal!Those professions which are not so much involved in life itself as concerned with abstract truths are the mostdangerous for the young man whose principles are not yet firm and whose convictions are not yet strong andunshakeable. At the same time these professions may seem to be the most exalted if they have taken deep root inour hearts and if we are capable of sacrificing our lives and all endeavours for the ideas which prevail in them.They can bestow happiness on the man who has a vocation for them, but they destroy him who adopts them rashly,without reflection, yielding to the impulse of the moment.On the other hand, the high regard we have for the ideas on which our profession is based gives us a higher standingin society, enhances our own worth, and makes our actions un-challengeable.One who chooses a profession he values highly will shudder at the idea of being unworthy of it; he will act nobly if onlybecause his position in society is a noble one.But the chief guide which must direct us in the choice of a profession is the welfare of mankind and our ownperfection. It should not be thought that these two interests could be in conflict, that one would have to destroy theother; on the contrary, man's nature is so constituted that he can attain his own perfection only by working for theperfection, for the good, of his fellow men.If he works only for himself, he may perhaps become a famous man of learning, a great sage, an excellent poet, buthe can never be a perfect, truly great man.History calls those men the greatest who have ennobled themselves by working for the common good; experienceacclaims as happiest the man who has made the greatest number of people happy; religion itself teaches us that theideal being whom all strive to copy sacrificed himself for the sake of mankind, and who would dare to set at noughtsuch judgments?If we have chosen the position in life in which we can most of all work for mankind, no burdens can bow us down,because they are sacrifices for the benefit of all; then we shall experience no petty, limited, selfish joy, but ourhappiness will belong to millions, our deeds will live on quietly but perpetually at work, and over our ashes will be shedthe hot tears of noble people.